For the last 90 days, I observed that my subconscious has chosen the path of being mean to people. Sometimes I wonder how or why I decided to take this route but looking back it has got to be circumstances and tough experiences that taught me to how to have a thick face and a black heart. My quips are smart and funny but I know I mean it but never intended to be mean at all.
A couple of years and months ago, it was oh-so different since Ive always taken the role of the good guy in every transaction that I do. I have always taken that path to give people a chance that there are still good guys in the planet willing to do things without asking for an exchange. But lo and behold, people are still damn crazy...people still see to it that when you are out there, it is every man for himself.
Some people deserves mercy and some people dont. Sometimes, people ask me if how Im able to put up a solid front in the presence of trials and tribulations, that Im able to put up a smile in absence of optimism, that I always ask the most basic and the most stupidest questions around as a segue in a meeting in order to emphasize the most complicated part of the situation. I somehow likened it to the fact that Im able to permanently erase the nastiest inside my mind and recover it later when needed. Thank God for this gift since I dont have to pretend but it works like when you push a button to erase the whole memory of it and turn emotions into its exact opposite.
Sometimes I wonder if I turned into a monster or grown up into something better. One things for sure, I dont and will not take no bullshit from nobody and take every opportunity to trash that person effortlessly and forget the damn things quickly.
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It feels great to be back with company of people that you call friends. Elmer is back in town after 1.5years of absence. We celebrated by having merienda together on Xavier and Yvette's son's bday party down there at ATC last saturday. Honestly, It was fun having these people around ever since the split-up. It was both a relief and refreshing since there will be a lot to talk about this summer. But with Ups comes the downside, Chas is leaving for the US by end of April. Now, we will be one woman short of laughter and good time.
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Dreams. Yeah they either hold you back or push you forward to the direction you're taking and Im not telling you what side Im on.
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Opportunities do come to people who chases it relentlessly. Me and Bench recently opened up our seafood joint along Sun Valley road and things are better there.
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Speaking of that new joint, I came across this unique group of people who lives near the munisipyo. These rastamann are cool since we get to spend very saturday nite with them even if the budget is that slim. The place is Ulo-Ulo sa Munisipyo. Beer is cheap and the crowd is cool and friendly. Nevermind the ambience but the content of the conversation matters.
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